"When the wine goes in, strange things come out"(Unknown.)

I was about four years old you made that promise you said it wont happen many times before I heard you tell me “Baby Girl YOU AINT GOT TA WORRY BOUT ME“ I stay up late nights hoping you come home sooner than you usually do. But my luck for that is zero to none.I hate this shit its keeping me from living the life I always want maybe the way you doing me is how I will do my kids or there kids will do the . I mean I only learn from example. what word can i use to show how Ifeel how you hurt me you cut me so deep that every time I see you its like im opening a old cut and poring salt in it. I ask myself is this really how you want to live life., going on and on and on hoping that the day you don't go to be around drugs or alcohol. Then I start taking second thoughts about wanting to bring kids into this shit hole thing we call L.I.F.E ,When I even think of it all I hear is L-Lies I-Insecurity F-Future that has war E-Eternal hope. I say whats the point 

His Eye Is On The Sparrow lyrics(what i woild of sang if the black berry phones would work)

Why should I feel discouraged

Why should the shadows come

Why should my heart fell lonely
And long for heaven and home
When Jesus is my portion
A constant friend is he
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches over me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches
He watches me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches
I know he watches over me
I know he watches me
I sing because I'm happy
I sing because I'm free
His eye is on the sparrow 
And I know he watches me
He watches me
His eye is on the sparrow
And I know he watches me
He watches me
He watches me, I never thought...
He watches me

To: My Beautiful Granddaughter,

A story of my life,it all started in e Lovelace hospital in room 224 a baby of almost 10lb was born to parents Lonnie and Suzanne Teasley in a city called Albuquerque. i was a pretty chill baby,didn't cry that much.as the years went by I got older the age of 2 I said my first word "Why!". That word stayed with me all my life. Some years went by and I found myself in Kindergarten being a leader,everyone loved me never did I have to do much for my self. I remember as the years went by I was always a leader never a follower. as i hit the 5th grade year it was fun people looked up to me never down, for being in the fifth grade I had strong expectations no only from myself but others. I got honor roll all the time, also perfect attendance. Middle School wow somewhat ruff it went okay.

I enjoyed walking in the park I'm very athletic I spent most of  my days at school or my mothers job giving my time to the Homeless,Drug Addicted,Alcoholics.At the Albuquerque Rescue Mission Women Center Of Hope(W.C.O.H). Staying there late nights praying and holding bible studies. I was youth leader at my church,preaching the gospel of my lord and savior is what I did best. I found out living the life of a Christan  and a teenager was very hard. but I managed to get through. I was brought up to speak two languages             

*My_Family_Tradition*

I'm going to start off by saying i never really looked into my family history, When I set down with my dad he gave me some ideas but I never payed any attention to it. I asked my dad what all do we have in the family, like culture he told me I quote "A'leeah you have so many different cultures in you,Native American, Black(African American) , Puertorican. Now I am proud to say I love who I am I learn that our tradition is for the past 3 generations you name the girls with A's and the boys with J's I never noticed but that really neat and I will carryout the tradition so will my kids...:)